If I'm honest I've been scared, I've lost all my confidence to speak openly about my mental health and how I am doing. Now that I am working and have a job I love I feel like I should not be feeling the way I am. I feel guilty that life is not what I thought it would be, that recovery is a process with no end. I am confused as to how I blogged as a student, how did I find that strength and where has it gone now?
I am constantly doubting my abilities and finding excuses; I'm too busy, no one will read it, I should not publicly share my story, you name it I have let it get in my way. I am sorry that I let this happen, I want to return to my passion. I have so much love for the power of storytelling, I want to my negative experiences to have been for a reason, to help others with my words and to help people realise that they are not alone. So I guess this means that Grace is back, that gracebelieved will have regular posts, at least I hope so.
Life might not be easy for me at the moment, but that is okay, I shouldn't hide this away from you all, instead, I want to take you along with me on this journey.
Thanks to the amazing mental health community for giving me the confidence to start writing again, especially to Jodie, reading your words "sharing your experiences is not easy. However, it is powerful. It does have the ability to change attitudes and behaviours. It will encourage understanding and provide hope. Your voice has more power than you believe." gave me a much needed nudge, it showed me that I need to return to my passion, to use my voice for good and to stop hiding away.
Together we are stronger, together we can use our negative experiences to help others, let's keep fighting!
Have you ever doubted your abilities to blog? Does sharing your experiences publicly scare you? Please let me know, by tweeting me (@gracebelieved) or commenting below.
